Such times, I've never felt so bitchy. At the same time, I've never felt so desperate and helpless to try and save something that means the world to me and have never meant so much before. Never before did it occur to me that sometimes apologies mean nothing that a word "sorry" isn't going to change anything. It's still sinking in that apologies can never, ever change a decision of a strong-headed one.

But afterall, I've never loved and wanted so much so that nothing else matters except saving what's left of it. Then again, there looks like there's nothing else to save. Or is there?

Alot of things to do, alot of things on my mind. But I'm procrastinating.
This includes my application to SIM & the other local Unis. In short, my future.
Instead I'm checking out movie timings for Dear John later today. Hehe.

The past few days havent exactly been smooth-sailing.
Friday was the release of As. Which I'm glad to say I'm extremely relieved to have passed overall, considering the fact that my 2 years of JC has always been meet-the-teachers/principal due to consistently failing. Consistently, what a word.
Wasnt in the right mind to celebrate.

Saturday was, well, just as bad.

Yesterday was worse. Minus the fact that I had the routine supper this time at Upp Changi and transvestites-hunting.

Bad days, bad sad depressing days. But I dont think I could have gone through them without Joey. Really. And for that, I will make sure I give him my utmost support in return.

With that, I conclude... alot of things to do, alot of things on my mind.
Still undone, still unsettled.