Haven't updated in so long but I'm busy watching Gossip Girl before the first day of school tomorrow.

Love is loving and standing by each other through the hardest times and always taking each other's backs. Love is comfort - assuring you that you are going to pull through, that not everything is yours to blame. Love is knowing and feeling assured I am here.

It has been a week since the passing of my grandma. Today was the first Sunday we had lunch or dinner at my grandma's house. Stepping into her room with much hesistation, I soon found myself at ease looking around feeling the presence. The presence of her absence.

Mama was the epitome of acts of service. As I quote from my uncle's tribute at the funeral last Sunday, "Ma ma always pushed food to her children and grandchildren, never leaving much to herself" Simple acts of love I witnessed since young at the dinner table every other Sunday during lunch and dinner. Unable to speak a word of teochew and minimal understanding of the dialect, I cannot be thankful enough for her graciousness, her sacrificial acts.

Having to go through such an incomparable loss, it was hard to grasp the truth and made me questioned many things - if happiness is short-lived; how does religion change things around; how life has to go on. If happiness is short-lived, would it be worth the amount of pain and sorrow after? Is there a copious amount of happiness to make up for any losses? How much significance do we place on happiness? What IS happiness..........

Is happiness short-lived or is this what everyone calls Life? The presence of her absence indeed. Mama, kam xia.

On a brighter note, I passed driving. But today on the 4th day with her temporary paper license, I got into a mild accident and with my Mum beside me. I hesistated when turning, decided it was safer to reverse and hit the bumper of a Comfort cab behind. Not a visible scratch at sight, the driver pulled his bumper only to claim it was loose hence involving my Mum to pay a couple of hundreds tmr. Now, who cares if I got 6 points for TP?!

Today, I met with a near death accident, which led many china men shouting simultaneously. I'm still shaking. I might just have a phobia of crossing roads from now onwards. Or remember how Nanyang Primary School taught me to look right, look left, raise your right hand and cross the road. I'm believing it is by God's grace that I could not find my iPod Touch this morning, if not I wouldn't have heard people shouting and in addition, preoccupied in my own thoughts.

Today, what do you live for?

It is not alright for someone dear to your heart to hurl vulgarities even if he or she is really pissed. Not alright. But is that a big (or small) enough sacrifice to be made?


Perfectly, not alright at all.

One day, I'll be this skinny and have gorgeous shoes........

















Currently using the computer in the school library and will be for another hour before I head out for awhile. Every Tuesdays my break is super long from 1030am-330pm! Last night was terrible. I think it was the first time I fell asleep after super long. Literally tossed and turned for 3 hours until I was so tired I slept. Don't know if you've ever felt that way - feeling like you'll not sleep at all when your mind is awake and constantly racing with random thoughts.

School's been busy or rather getting busier. Its my 3rd week at SIM, University of Buffalo (Communications) and I've more and more homework as each day passes. From group projects to many 1000 word essays (One due in a week) to presentations (In 2 weeks) for my Music & Society class. It isn't really what it seems because its very interesting with a damn funny and young lecturer.

Until now I dno why my parents are paying $62k for local lecturers.....

By the way, if you're reading this, please visit and comment http://quietsundays.wordpress.com Its a blog which is compulsary for Communications to post entries weekly and have people comment. The most messed up part is: Its graded. So I'll really really (from the bottom of my heart) appreciate all the help I can get.

Thank you. :>

Things to do:

1. Get coffee. Living off coffee today.



















2. Get a manicure















3. Revamp my side of the room. Wish I've my own room
(Need more closet space & photoframes)



















4. Be prepared for what's to come and embrace every moment
(University @ SIM in 3 days)

Working at Singapore Yacht Club (Never knew where such a place would be located in Singapore. Its near West Coast Park) for the next 2 weeks. Starting school after on the 17th. Time flies, I'm an Undergraduate. Work's been super slack which calls for me browsing random websites, looking at pretty tumblr pictures, watching time pass on the bottom right corner of my computer screen. Its only Day 2 and I have an hour and forty-five minutes before I can punch out my card.